just a feeling i needed badly..

as time passed by i realized i miss a feeling that i had had before.. just a feeling that's not real. not real for me because of the fact that i'm so far away from it.. the continent is the same, exactly, but the cirsumstances.. differ.

its pretty hard to write about it.. it was not a long time ago i encountered that special thing. i saw it on the telly. not the feeling, the series. a series i didnt like. it seemed like a lame strained teenage show. about drugs, sex, being adolescent. but a friend of mine attracted my attention with a short sentence which was like 'hey you bally fool, watch it in english! hun dubs suck!'. then i tried it. and finally fell in love with the whole thing. it was about much more than i had thought of. definitely. it was not about drugs, sex and being adolescent. it has a deeper say. and apart from that i cant describe it, i can describe the feeling it caused. its another world, seeming so far away, the place you never reach. the people you never meet. but it grows on you. when you see it, when you listen to its soundtracks you get isolated. so isolated you forget where youre going what youre doing. you just feel being somewhere else. and when you think of it you cant see the people and the running world around you. its a kinda weird thing. its just a tv show. with no exact aim. gaining money. or whatever. i know. but anyway, i got addicted. and it has a reason. it doesnt happen 'just because'. it has a special mood i need. and i get it as many times i want. just have to watch an episode and i can remember the whole. and everythings gonna be the same again. .. cant be describe. i try in vain.